o b s e s s e d

if you didnt know awwready i am in love with B.
yonce that is. Obsessed is her latest film which is set to come out this spring. Cadillac Records was awesome so I know this is even better. PLUS it has Idris Elba. (did u know that he is English?) It tells the story of a married man who has an affair with his co-worker; when he attempts to end it he cant because his mistress is obsessed.

universecity.

early i know...but much later than it could have been. same ol' routine. I wake up to nothing and lie in my boredom. I gazed back and forth at my laptop, that was in arms reach, debating when I should open it up. Hesitant because I was sure I would never get off. Dibbled and dabbled through the net on my "computer phone" until I instantly got fed up with its speed. Grabbed the presario. I did what I had to do on facebook, which wasnt wasnt much, then nature called. Somehow I ended up here.

Ive realized that everyones reasons for seeking higher learning are different; despite what you may think. Yeah the overall objective of it is to get a G O O D job but that's not why everyone goes. Some people go for just that; a good education that will place them higher in the job market. Others to find a spouse. Many people end up going because their parents forced them to. My reason is undefined.

I met a girl from Germany and she didn't HAVE to go to college; well at least for the period of time that we do. She chose to...merely to play basketball. They take they're core classes in high school and in 2 years or less they learn their field & get a job. must be nice.

I guess overseas the people are more focused. Think about it. The first 2 years of our college careers are designed to give us an aspect of every field, so that we can decide what we want to do. We end up taking classes that we will never use, and waste valuable time on nothingness.

I have also realized that even if this day in age people are forced into doing things they don't necessarily want to do.

Ive noticed that the Business department at my school is one of the biggest buildings on campus. Why do you think that is? Not only because they have great Alumni who give back, but also because they have the most students. We grew up hearing that the only way to make good money was by owning your own business. What kind? doesnt matter. That may be slightly true but there are other options.

I strongly believe in loving what you do. Yeah, I loved working at Victorias Secret but no way in hell I want to be there for the rest of my life. If I am struggling to pay 7,000 dollars a semester you better believe that Im going to enjoy doing what I do.

Idk. I guess I just want others to know what I know & feel what I feel. I dont want anyones degree to go to waste because they didnt follow their dreams from the beginning.

sincerely,

danielle.

p.s. dont ever eat a frozen salad.

hail m a r y. [ave maria]

subliminally speaking.
when attention gets too thick, you put me in line. you inspire me to do great things.
I go against my better judgement because Im afraid..knowing you can take away the pain.
I ridicule others who indulge in you because they took my place.
Oh how i long for the random visits and wish you didnt run away.

we could defy gravity, if we went to the moon: we would never come down.
seems like forever a long time coming. I cant wait til you come around.
We been all around the world together yet still in one room.
5 4 3 2 1 i am sure i will see you soon.

Q: think you know what im talkin about?
A: YOU DONT.
4 stacy...

disclaimer: i am NOT (in no way, shape, form, OR fashion) a poet, nor am i trying to be.

sincerely,
danielle.

end of the saga.

(trilogy didn't really apply)
hmm. seems like my thoughts are winding down when it comes to this blog issh. mainly because i refuse to just write anything ordinary.
school is about to start and i guess its a new beginning; for me that is. I no longer have anything designated for me to do. (other than class) YES! i guess there's no better time than the present so i might as well put my skills to use. well see how that turns out.

Ive been in the house all day bored out of my mind but too lazy to get up and do anything. I found myself thinking a lot about the many people and relationships I have encountered over the years.
Looking back,
the first thing that would come to mind is that they were fake. Sad to say but that sometimes included me. When i go deeper into each situation I cant really say it was fake because at the time it felt so real. I guess you can say I was chasing the happy. I didnt really know who I was because I was caught up in who I thought I should be. Dont get me wrong...I dont wish to take back any of it. J says learn to live with regrets but I dont have any. LOVE? let me not even go there. The seriousness of it all is hilarious; or it was back then. & i actually thought i was doin somethin smh. :/
if a lie gone get me through..id rather not know the truth. if the truth gone make me cry..id rather just live a lie.
-Jasmine Sullivan
Lol its crazy how growing up you go through things and it seems like the end of the world. Back then drama seemed to multiply. Relationships meant more..and essentially all the things that were important didnt matter.

Man, i did some out of line stuff growing up. lol. its nice to mature.
i think about all of the lies i told... In elementary school i used to tell the other kids that Martin Luther King was my uncle, because my moms maiden name is King. My dad owned Katy, TX because we lived off of the infamous Mason rd. The list goes on.
As I grew up I never wanted my parents to know what I was doing. Not because it was wrong but because I needed a sense of privacy in my life. Oh, and because my dad had a one track mind.
After it all Ive realized how important it is to stay true to yourself. The truth HAS set me free. More than ever I feel like I can talk about anything, to anybody without the wandering thoughts or feelings of uncomfort. Being an honest person has shown me that nothing can hold me back. Might not apply for everyone but Ill never go back.

i guess there's no real point to this post. who cares. just needed to write.
not sure how often ill be doing this..&& i didnt even think i would get this far. i thank everyone who has given me good feedback.

sincerely,
danielle.

teenage love affair...

i want it ALL.

but since I am b r o k e...i might as well share my findings amongst you bumble bee'z.

a c o o l website for clothing is http://www.theurbancollection.com/

the only problem is they are limited in supply and sizes. somethin like an online boutique. i love it. i think this site caters to everyone and their own individual personalities.

im sure you all have heard of http://www.etsy.com/ but if not it is an online market. it allows you to buy and sell things that are handmade. some of it is pricy but you find a lot of rare and unique items.

i want this clock so bad.

R E H A B

(response to medicaid...diplomat)

was lost but now I'm found. i found my drug.
the cure to this pain, or lack thereof.
no longer am i reduced to this feeling, bitter & ashamed.
in a world full of deceit it was hard to maintain.

say hello to the bad guy, or girl that is.
turning over a new leaf. i gotta handle my biz.
in your face like mace I refuse to hide
day by day...im takin it all in stride.
(i dont know how this turned into a poem..i just ran with it. sck at poetry.)

[the real issh.]
no drug can compare to my natural amphetamine. sometimes i wish it could. i found myself the source of your thoughts and subject of your words; at the time it wasnt so good. spent too much time trying to transplant myself from your world & now im thinking its not that bad.
those drugs could only add to the sorrow that i once thought i had.

dang did it again. i give up.

i do this in my slumber; summer.
sincerely,
danielle.

www.zach-the-diplomat.blogspot.com

can i kick it..

yes yu can,

(in response to the diplomat)

5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20.

thats how long you have until you will be gone. so until then tidy up...kiss some ass and stop complaining lol. jk-ing.

its not about being obedient its about making things flow. disobedience is based off of some weird demon telling you that something isnt right; therefore we choose to disrupt.

i agree with you when you say that there needs to be some sort of line that separates us from being told & choosing to decide for ourselves...well come to think of it there is. the reason why it is important to teach children about the world and what is expected of them is so that these children will be able to decide for themselves whether obedience is the right way to go.

"whoever said illegal was the easy way out couldnt understand the mechanics...&& workings of the underworld. granted" -d'evils.

lol might not apply i just love Jz. my man.

anywhoo i agree with your sentiments mainly because the only reason im on here right now is because i am shoved into boredom by the evils perspired by my old man.

it wouldnt be called home if it werent somewhat similar to how it was when you left. me and vesta had this convo the other day. come home && feel like hostages..physical or through the mind. shoulda known that before you came.

lol sorry kid. i have a habit of going against everything people say...well unless i think its right..

toodles.

sincerely,

danielle.

your best danielle rendition.

(had me at hello).
subliminally speaking
i swear ill never fall again..lol but at the time it didn't even feel like falling.
i guess now days clarity is an essential component to everything. never again will I go into something with unclear intentions. a battle that could never be won.
doesnt matter if you think youre stepping on my most vital organ; at the end of the day i will always have the upper hand.
its funny how much of an effect our emotions have on us.
"l o v e will make you do right...or make you do wrong."
who am i fooling? 19 at war lmao.
a fallacy. in case you didnt know exaggeration is an extended form of a lie.
spent too much time trying to stretch the truth to make 'it' seem real.
rules are made to be broken. regulations arent placed on the b r a i n.
furthermore no one did anything wrong. just wasnt right.
if i cant have it all i dont want any of it. greedy, maybe?
thats life i live it.
Q: think you know what im talking about?
A: you dont.
somethin like poetry in motion.
i dont follow guidelines..too many people rob minds.

sincerely,
danielle.